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I don't even know the last time I wrote in here. I guess I've just been so busy with school and I just haven't had time to go on line long enough to write on here. Well school is over. duh. yall know that. Haven't done much so far. Nor talked to many people from school. Nor any of my "friends". But I wouldn't quite call them "friends". I guess thats what the quotations are for. anywho...only people I have talked to is Ronny, Danny and Brian. Brian is from Birmingham, Alabama....but i'll get to that later.
Danny and I are cool now. We have completely cleared everything up between us. We are just friends =]
Although he still wants to be closer...he respects that I want nothing more.
Ronny and I are still working on things. We broke up for a while and we both really thought it was over. Very bad time too. I really don't want to see him like that ever again =[
But things are looking better.
I just realized I can't talk about Brian. My mom might read this and flip. But if anyone wants to know just ask.
I really wish I could talk about it too. I wanna know peoples oponion about the whole thing too. errr nosey mothers. But no one even reads this thing so it won't matter. lol oh well.
Back to Ronny I guess lol. He just got his cell phone activated. Now I can get a hold of him any time =]
Unfortunatly...I'm a little worried about it. All his little wannabe girl friends will be calling him all the time. But I just have to remember that he is in love with me and not the other skank hoochies =]
Tuesday I'm leaving to go to Auburn. I'm excited. Hopefully I'll get rid of this Yankee accent.
I'l be getting back Sunday I beleive.
I've been baby-sitting alot. Trying to save for my trip with my church. We are going white water wrafting and then going to six flags. I'm really excited but I still need 40 more dollars. It cost $150. Not bad.
Act testing tomorrow. I have take it at IRCC. =P yippie
Well I'm off to bed. Sweet dreams to all.
xoxox~
Sarah*Ann
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[14 Mar 2004|02:47pm] |
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I LOVE FOOD!! I ate so much of it yesterday...from the lack of it all last week. mmmm outback.
I didn't get to hang out with Ronny as much as I would have liked to this weekend. But as usual we had our good and bad times. I love you more than anything <3
I have so much make up work and I haven't done any of it. None!! Shame on me I know. I'm not even half way threw with my book. It's my AR book project for Stroh. Blah.
( Rusty )
It's a picture of my old dog. =[
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I have a stomach virus. lucky me. i threw up like 12 times yesterday. Everything came up. Ick!! So yea I have nothing in my stomach at all except gatorade. I've lost 5 lbs. no bad at all. It was only suppose to be a 24hr. virus. but I should have known better. I'm never sick for just 24hours.
So Ronny stayed home from school yesterday s0o he could keep me company. I felt bad though because he wasn't allowed over to my house. My mom didn't want him getting sick either. But we talked on the phone alot. I dunno if he stayed home today or not. I really hope that he didn't. But I'll find out at 9:00 when he's suppose to call me.
Everyone should go and see The Passions Of The Christ. It was such a good movie!! I saw it twice. Friday with my youth group and Sunday with Ronny. It gave me whole diffrent perspective of life and christianty. I cried a lot. But my youth group leader told us the what you saw in the movie was really pg like. meaning like the beatings were much worse than that. He told us that they literaly beat Jesus so badly that his backbone and organs were showing. I know that is grose but it's how it was done. And all of you who don't beleive in Jesus....should still watch the movie. And you'll see that no human being could have lived threw any of that. Watch it and think about it.
mmkay...thats all for now...
I love you Ronny s0o much!! MWAH <3
xoxox~
Sarah*Ann
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The other day I was in a really bad mood. Everyone seemed to be yelling at me or getting upset at me and I didn't know what for.
Ronny:: I'm really sorry. I explained to you why I was s0o upset. But I still shoudn't exploded like I did. You just have to uderstand not to ask me questions like that when I'm mad.
So...this morning I get to school and Ronny is waiting at my locker, as usual. And he tells me to hurry up because he needs to go to his locker. I'm thinking...umm...okay. So we go to his locker and he tells me to close my eyes. Again...umm....okay?! and he opens it up
(I was peeking) and he had a red carnation in there.
Awww I love him s0o much. It was s0o cute. The only thing was that it didn't get any water all day but it's getting a drink as we speak haha!! (I crack myself up)
It made me very happy. You see this Ronny it made me HAPPY!! lol Thanks s0o much.
Yea so school was gay. lacrosse was gay. yes people they are both flamers. but wait what if they are girl. that'd mean they would be lesbo's. no because gay would have to be ment for guys. so they are FLAMERS!! haha.
okay i'm done. gonna go talk to the most hansomest guy in the world. (you owe me 5 bucks!!) Love you!!
XoXoX~
Sarah*Ann
P.S.
Devin, Amanda, Brittani, Nicole, Ronny + Me need to go the islands of adventure over spring break!!
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[29 Feb 2004|10:56am] |
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friday night i went to outback for the first time with danny (yes ron knew) then after supper i headed for the mall to meet up with jeff so we could watch a movie. saw brittani there and a whole shit load of people i've never met before. odd. but i got to see my baby in action lol. but i was so happy because i got to hang out with him on his break =] so yah saw 50 first dates with jeff. i felt bad because it appeared jeff wanted to just go home and sleep and i felt i was preventing that from happening. i thought it was very funny and was craking up all the time....jeff on the other hand...rather silent lol. sry if you ddn't have a good time. we did get to talk before the movie witch was nice. =]
yesterday (saturday) my dad and i headed to my grandparents. we just cisited when we got there and then my grandmother got bored so she took me around so i could take some pictures. i got a cow to pose for me lol and i also got a zibra!! haha no joke. anywho so we came back and we started to cook/fry some frog legs and crappy's (thats a type of fish) and hushpuppies and garlic grits. mmmm it was all s0o good. so yea then went to bed woke up this morning and went fishing. it was s0o cold!!! i only cought 6 but it's all good. lol
s0o now i'm here nothing to do because it's about to rain. I miss my baby s0o much =[ I can't wait to see him. I love you more then anything sweetie.
well thats all for now.
I LOVE YOU RONALD D. MASSE II
(i didn't write your middle name =P )
XoXoX~
Sarah*Ann
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[22 Feb 2004|05:32pm] |
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friday night i hung out with ronny. he was grounded and couldn't leave his house....so i went over there and watched swim fan. we rented that and got some arby's. mmmm good. i had s0o much fun that night. i love how ronny and i are now. we have s0o much fun together. it's not like how it was before when we dated. i dunno. it just feels diffrent. maybe because i've realized that he's truely the only one thats going to be in my life from here on out. sigh. gosh i love him so much.
okay anywho. so yea friday night was awsome. sorry jeff. we gotta get some plans next time.
saturday had to wake up at 5:30 for lacrosse. had a jamboree where we played 4 diffrent teams for 30 minutes. we won all of them. go us. yea. woo. =P
got home at 4:00 took a shower and went to go baby-sit at 5:30 and finished that at 12:00. i was so tired. but i got paid 8 bucks an hour!!
today ronny and i went to the mall. we ate some weird chink food. very weird tasting....but he liked it so thats all that matters. we both got a shirt. his looks so sexy. it's tight around his arms and shows his arm mussel. very sexy. he'll probably wear it tomorrow ::grins:: so after the shopping we still had some time left before he had to work. so we went into that arcade place. he kicked my butt in everything. so i lost a bunch of bets...not good. lol
so now i'm sitting her just recaling the weekend. i had the most fun i've had in a long time. i love spending time with my baby. i love him so much. i just wish that one day he will relaize that he's the only one i want in my life. but i feel like he'll only relaize that when i say "i do"
untill next time...
xoxox~
Sarah*Ann
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[17 Feb 2004|08:44pm] |
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I have never loved anyone in my life as I do with Ronny. He's the best thing that has ever happened to me.
But I'm sad because he got into some trouble the other night and can't talk on the phone. I think he feels that this is going to make me want to break up with him. In the past when we dated before I would always get mad or upset and break up with him. Can I say re-tard!!
I've tried to explain to him that I am never going to break up with him un-less he cheats on me or something (witch I know he will never do) so we will be together forever. I just wish he could understand that.
He makes me s0o unbelievably happy. Valentines day was the best. We were so happy. I went to him house at about 5:00 and he told me to come in that he had something for me. He had told me he'd gotten me a book with poems about love and stuff....witch I thought was sweet. Well he lied. lol He gave me the card first witch was very sweet...just like him. then he handed me this box. I'm thinking uh-oh. So I open it and it's this beautiful gold bracelet with red and white gem stones. red ones are my birthstone. It is the prettiest thing. I love it so much. I'm a little upset for him spending so much money on it...but hey it was worth it. Then we got appelbee's take out. And we went to Charles Park to eat it. Finished the awsome food and went back to his house to cuddle.(then i had to go to work lol) But it was so much fun. It was just him and I. I couldn't have asked for a better day.
Thank you s0o much Ron.
Anyway... so that was my Valentines.
I'm a little upset with one of my friends. I'm supposely her "Best Friend" but apparently I'm not. You're suppose to be the first one to know things that are important in that persons life. not the last. It made me cry. Because a lot more people knew about this and I had to hear it from someone else.....she lied to me and told me it wasn't true. I seriously have no friends. Ronny is my only true friend. Everyone has their relationships now a days. They never talk to me. It's like Amanda-Devin-Brittani-Nicole. thats one group. Milligan-her man-Justine. then Samantha-David-Danny. WOW where do I fir in?! yea s0o great. w/e Im gonna go try to call Ron again. Hopefully his Dad will let him talk real quick.
Ron I love you s0o much. Nothing is going to break us apart. I promise. <3
xoxox~
Sarah*Ann
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HAPPY VALENTINESDAY EVERYONE!!!
I LOVE YOU RON S0O MUCH. THIS IS THE BEST VALENTINES DAY EVER. I CAN'T WAIT FOR TONIGHT. =]
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It's official. Ronald Dwayne Masse and Sarah Ann McKinnon are back together =]
I've never been so happy. I only hope that this relationship last a looooog time. Thanks for everyone's help and support. I love you all.
I love you sweetie!! MWAH <3
xoxox~
Sarah*Ann
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well i'm still sick i wish i would just get better. ronny is coming over tomorrow afternoon so we can have our valentines day. satuday i have to baby-sit for people who live in wabasso. it's gonna suck having to drive out there.
i got my results for my moles. three on them are benign, but one on my back was a pre-malignant melanoma and has to be cut out. if i don't get it cut on in the next 6-8 months and can form into cancer. lucky me. so no matter what i get more operations!! woohoo.
ron skipped school today s0o i got to talk to him all day =]
i love you ron s0o much!! <3
i'm stll tryng to figure out how to put pictures on my l.j. oh well i don't hav enough patients to figure it out. okay well i'm gonna go finish watching dawsen's creek and talk to my sweetie!!
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well monday i got 4 moles removed. rather painfull might i add. wasn't able to shower because i couldn't get them wet. so i got out of lacrosse practice as well. i got one off my chin, neck, and 2 on my back.
I felt reather crappy yesterday. went home durning 7th period. then came back at the end of lunch, because i felt like i couldn't miss lacrosse because i am trying to make captin and if i wasn't there it would look bad on my part. anywho so last night i felt awful!! stuffy nose, aching body, head felt like there was nothing but air in their. so i go to bed early and woke up with a fever. so i'm sick. and not at school today.
i really hope i get better by tomorrow because Ron and I had plans to go out on Friday for our valentines because i have to work on satuday.
i dunno if I even want to go with him anymore though. at times i feel like I love him more than the world. but for as long as i've known him he's always been trying to get with other girls. i just read something that made me throw up. i'd rather not say what it said right now because i first want to get the facts staraight. i'm sure some of yall can guess what it had to do with but nvm.
i'm gonna go and wait for him to get home from school. i absoutly hate when he does this stuff to me. and i hate it so much because i always beleive what he says...and i never know if he's lying to me. i hate lyers!!
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[01 Feb 2004|06:29pm] |
welp I made JV. no shock there. oh well. had fun a britt's. wished it could have been better..sry about the arguing ron.
okay I want EVERYONE to respond to this. I just got my hair cut..it's pretty short. well for me it is. I've never had my hair this short. well anywho now that I made a drastic hair cut I was thinking if I should grow my bangs out?!
a couple a people have mentioned it to me and I wasn't sure because as long as I can remember I've had bangs. well so I want to know what yall think.
*keep the bangs
*grow 'em out
please everyone who reads this let me know!! I want your complete honest opinion. thank ya very much!! that's all for now. MWAH
xoxox~
Sarah*Ann
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today I had tryouts from 2:30-5:40. very tiring!! (for lacrosse by the way)
tomorrow we have it from 7-12:00. it's going to be hell. he tries to make it as tough as possible so he can get rid of the slackers/losers. lol anywho... after that tomorrow i'm getting my hair cut!! it's about time. plus my eye brows waxed.
then hopefully... i'll be picking up ron jon and meeting hooch to go to britt's party.
my mom is still iffy on me going. i didn't do great on my report card but i improved on a lot. i dunno i'll just be sucking up from now until then.
crap i still gotta get her something too. and sry your not getting money from me. i hate doing that, it's not personable enough. is that a word?! i dunno!!
sry to everyone who read my journal entry that i deleated. it just upset me a lot. yall have to undertstand that.
i got a new lax stick. nothing else is new so i'm gonna go gotta rest before tomorrow comes.
xoxox~
Sarah*Ann
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[22 Jan 2004|08:08pm] |
T.J!! I'm s0o sorry. I'm such a bad friend =[
I promise it will happen another time...maybe this weekend?!
anywho. birthday sucked as usual. what else is new. birttani's is up next. feb. 2nd. not sure if she's having a party or not. but don't worry you'll get one no matter what!! =]
took some pictures at the beach. there were like 50 seagulls (ron came with me) and I had him throw his shoe at them and they flew over me. I got a pic of 'em...but I was s0o scared they were gonna poop on me!! lol tons of fun. must do it again.
i guess thats all I'm finally feeling betterthnk god!!
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i'm so sick of worrying. i'm so sick of being scared. he's always sending his picture to girls. and why i ask. if he claims he thinks he's so ugly why send them to other girls than me?! maybe deep down he knows he's not ugly and he wants the girls to make him feel better about himself. i don't know sometimea i feel like i should just stop caring. stop trying so hard. but then i just think of the old times. old memmories. and i don't want to stop. he's never had so my girls that liked him before and it's killing me. why you might ask. because i love him more than anything. for once i figure this out. and of course i don't know what to do. i'm not ready to be in a serious relationship again. but i don't want to loose him to other skanks.
it always appears to me that he flirts constant. he claims he love's me. i got an e-mail from him this morning..."I love you more than anything, please know that. Your my world, myyy woonderfull...just please never forget that."
but then i see him flirt....i guess i have no right to say anything. hes still priviliaged to do anything he gosh darn pleases to as long as we are not dating. sigh. why is this so hard for me. why is it so painful.
i think giving up will probably be less hurtfull. yes i think that will solve my problem.
---end.
xoxox~
Sarah*Ann
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I'm better!! it was raining today so no one went to the frog leg festival w/o me. so that ment to food for me. oh well. tomorrow hanging out with ron jon!! =]
if anyone has any plans call me or let me know some how. i wanna stay busy the whole day...cuz it's my only day for vacation before school starts!!
much love to everyone. MWAH!!
XoXoX~
Sarah*Ann
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well i woke up at 4:00. couldn't sleep. finally at 5 i made some hot tea and watched the rest of seabiscuit. it was a lot better than i thought.
sat around most of the day. my sister bought me some goldfish. yummis. then fell asleep at 2-5. so i missed ron jon's phone call. =[ i never really get to talk to him much. it's no one's fault. we just have bad timing.
i'm hoping s0o bad that i'm all better by monday. my mom said if i am she'll let me go out.
as brittani would say right now ::does happy dance:: shes so cute lol.
anywho. i miss my friends. being grounded all the time not having the same lunch any more. i never see yall!!
well i hope everyone's weekend is awsome. much love to all. MWAH!!
xoxox~
Sarah*Ann
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wow it's been a while. a very long while.
nothing really new it's pretty much the same 'ol stuff.
i'm sick again. surprise surprise but it's not the flu thank the lord!!
ron jon came over today to keep me company. =] that made my day. he brought over the movie seabiscuit. i was wanting to see pirates of the carribean but he couldn't find it. but we didn't watch really any of it. the movie was too hard for me to keep up. i think the fever has gotten to my head. but yea ron came over he ate my food (pudge monkey!!) then talked a little...just had fun. i've missed my old ron jon. but he's back =] right pudge monkey lol. so yah thats all i really did today besides eattin sleepin peein ha i sound like a new born baby.
my dad invited me to the frogleg festival. i've been wanting to go sense i heard about it. i just hope i get better by sunday.
my mom is being mrs. doctor. she put me on an old medicine that i've taken before. i can't wait to see what my doctor has to say about that on monday.
o0okay nothing else to write for now. maybe i'll update tomorrow. i'll do my best.
....i hate computers
xoxox~
Sarah*Ann
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